Man. I remember the days when I was filled with so much passion and so much love for God and so much dedication for the ministry. I never thought I could mellow out or forget what that felt like, but I did. I forgot what I was doing. I stopped caring, and then God left me. The most terrifying feeling that I have ever experienced in my life was the absence of God. I felt alone and cold. And I felt so envious of everyone around me. They all felt Him, and I could only watch them through scared and sad eyes and pray as hard as I was able to for God to come back. I prayed with all my soul and all my passion, and He returned, for He is a loving and forgiving God. I was so happy, and so comforted by His presence. I felt the tears streaming down my face and I was complete. I was whole again.
Just now, I had forgotten again. I was feeling sad and lost, and I had nothing to look to, so I took a peak on my blog, and "Here In My Life" started playing, and I could feel Him. I can still feel Him right now. My God. I know He is here with me, and nothing can ever hinder me while God is here. I am complete.
It's a strange thing to feel God's work actually occurring. My New Year's resolution, as I've posted before, is to help those in need. I've noticed so many people, and more than once has someone talked to me about their problems. I'm supposed to help them to the best of my ability. God is leading these people to me. This is it, this is my purpose. At least for now, this is why I'm here. I am relieved and content. I am ready.
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You have kept your resolution :D Thanks for everything you really are a great brother more than you probably think. PIRATES FTW!
I am so glad i was moved to read your most recent post, brother. I just got through talking with MY Michelle, the one that's been causing me so much anguish. And sure enough i got a sign from God that told me that it's time to look forward. And i clicked on your blog and obviously it was about God telling you God is here, and i believe that God is with me now, which is why it's time to celebrate brother. It is time. Your "word verification" word happens to be gosess. heh. Gosess.
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