Did you hear the angels sing?

I always thought that if I waited long enough for something, something important, and I sat back in patient silence, when I finally got what I wanted, the clouds would open up and a chorus of angelic voices would ring out in the air and I'd be filled with joy and happiness. Have you ever done that?

Have you ever waited so long on something or someone, and when they finally came through, it was the happiest moment of your life?

Have you ever waited, and then when you got it, you couldn't hear the angels singing?

I supposed I'm just being sad over nothing, or whatnot. I don't even know, there's always one thing on my mind. One thing that I'm waiting for. Most of my blogs pertain to this thing. It's crazy because I'm either pathetic, or dedicated. And I'm too afraid to talk to anybody about it openly. Like, this blog is more of a way for me to talk to myself, but then also talk to everyone. It's not like anybody reads this crap anyways, so it's mostly talking to myself.

I dunno, I always think about it. I'm always pretending not to notice, but I do. I really do. And honestly, I want nothing more than to just let it out and tell everyone, because it's so distracting, but I just can't, probably because I'm weak, or something, or because I'm a coward. Eh. I don't know, there are only certain people who I want to talk about it with, it's just I'm too afraid to let any of them know. Oh well. I gotta go anyways. Signing off..

-Bam.