Thursday, August 28, 2008

Well, that's just depressing.

So, I've been using this blog as a sort of haven to drop all of my trials and tribulations on, and to explain, subtly, my current situations, and I'm afraid I've arrived in a rut, because I've no material for any bright and happy posts lately. Most of my problems generate from my own craving (pertaining to the last blog entry). I feel drained lately. Unfocused. And I go against what my two most trusted consolidators tell me. And, though I know, in my mind, that they are right, in my emotional pool of senses, I can't do what they tell me, because subconsciously, I believe that they are wrong.

Perhaps I am simply dense, and unable to comprehend, but I have been unable to comprehend for months now, while my mind is usually analytical enough to make sense of things after a small bit of repeating. The turmoil within my mind is a chaotic blur, and I'm afraid my sanity may be in jeopardy. Unfortunately enough, the only one who can act as my savior, is neither aware, nor willing to be so.

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