Oh MAN, blogspot, I forgot all about you! Sorry, sorry. I just really haven't been in the blogging mood recently, PLUS my computer is causing me all kinds of grief. Like, since I've started writing this blog, my internet browser has gone into "not responding" mode four times already. I can feel it, my trusty laptop is finally about to reach its end. And I haven't even had it for a year yet. I'll see if I can get it fixed before it actually kicks the bucket.
So lately, my connection with God has been wearing thin. I don't feel the same passion as I did before, and I have become less than happy. Like, here's how I can explain it... During the times of my spiritual high, I am less than concerned with worldly things. I mean, I do the things that need to be done, but other than that, my life would consist of ritualistic contemplation of God's plan and His love for humanity, and a little bit of preparation for the next YFC event. That's pretty much it. And I've lost focus on that. The only time I actually return to my spiritual high is at church on sundays. And that only lasts for a good ten minutes after I leave the church.
I don't know, it's probably because I haven't been putting myself in the mood. I haven't been getting all hyped up over it lately, like I usually do. However, there is a meeting tomorrow, and I'm gonna go for God. I'm gonna go, knowing in my mind, that I'm going there to learn about Him, and praise and worship Him with other people. I've gotta stop going just for the sake of going. I think this might be my trial. This might be God's test for me. I don't plan on failing.
On a somewhat different note, I will try to remove the bad influences from my life. Some people might bring me down, and away from God, but I'm gonna stop them before that happens. I'm gonna stop them right now. It's fun talking to them, and they're really cool, but it's making me lose focus of what's really important, and that is my never-ending service to God. I'm gonna try my hardest. It's only been one night since I started, and I had to fight temptation super hard, but I prevailed in the end.
Also, something is wrong with YFC. I dunno what it is. The brothers and sisters aren't tight like we used to be. I don't know how to explain it, because it's like, floating nonchalantly underneath the radar, but it's there, and I feel it. It's either gonna cause us to erupt on eachother, or it's gonna cause us to slowly drift away from eachother. I don't know what it is, but I know that it's there. We'll have to see what happens. I'll pray about it.
- Bam
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y'know, you are very right, my brother. We haven't been as close as we usually are because of something odd going on. And no, i don't blame it on me getting closer to Liz. I think it's something much closer to all of us. Who knows. However, i do know that i didn't go to work today because i got kicked in the temple when we battled yesterday. I'll show you when/if i call you and am ok enough to come to your house. hehehe. The word verification for your comment is mistr. What the randomly an almost actual word. If you end up reading this today, call me. I'll answer because i don't want to do anything else.
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