Life is almost good. Almost.

So, I got my permit. And I think I'm pretty ok at driving after one day of practice. I can park straight, haha. I really think I got lucky on the test. Or God saved my soul. Something like that. I'm pretty sure that passing wasn't just my doing.

Since I started practicing driving, I've got this feeling of advancement in life in general. I'm really setting off into this world. It's like how baby birds learn to use their wings. Except instead of wings, I have an old, busted, manual Isuzu Amigo. Complete with a cracked windshield and a horribly scratched up red paint job. Excellent.

And to further this experience, my 18th birthday is right around the corner. I'm going to be legalized as an adult on November 28th. All of this, paired with the immense independence that has been thrust upon me by college life just shows me: I am grown up, and it's amazing. I never really thought it could happen. In actuality, I've just been coasting through my teenage life without a thought about the future. I mean, I understood that I'd eventually go out and get a job and all of that good stuff, but it feels like it came too fast. Or too abruptly. Not that it's a bad thing, it's just that I was way ill-prepared. And the whole "growing up" thing dawned on me at a super late moment.

I think I'll do fine as an adult. We'll have to see.

Anyways, in THAT regard, life is good. The almost part is something terribly, terribly repetitive. Notice how I added two terribly's to further the effect of repetitiveness. That's how serious it is. And not serious in the sense of traditional dictionary definition, but rather, the M. J. Abero definition. I will soon eliminate the imperfection that is marring the goodness in my life, however. So it's all good. Or it WILL be all good. Haha.

I'm done, peace out.

- Bam

Here's to weeks of inactivity.

Oh MAN, blogspot, I forgot all about you! Sorry, sorry. I just really haven't been in the blogging mood recently, PLUS my computer is causing me all kinds of grief. Like, since I've started writing this blog, my internet browser has gone into "not responding" mode four times already. I can feel it, my trusty laptop is finally about to reach its end. And I haven't even had it for a year yet. I'll see if I can get it fixed before it actually kicks the bucket.

So lately, my connection with God has been wearing thin. I don't feel the same passion as I did before, and I have become less than happy. Like, here's how I can explain it... During the times of my spiritual high, I am less than concerned with worldly things. I mean, I do the things that need to be done, but other than that, my life would consist of ritualistic contemplation of God's plan and His love for humanity, and a little bit of preparation for the next YFC event. That's pretty much it. And I've lost focus on that. The only time I actually return to my spiritual high is at church on sundays. And that only lasts for a good ten minutes after I leave the church.

I don't know, it's probably because I haven't been putting myself in the mood. I haven't been getting all hyped up over it lately, like I usually do. However, there is a meeting tomorrow, and I'm gonna go for God. I'm gonna go, knowing in my mind, that I'm going there to learn about Him, and praise and worship Him with other people. I've gotta stop going just for the sake of going. I think this might be my trial. This might be God's test for me. I don't plan on failing.

On a somewhat different note, I will try to remove the bad influences from my life. Some people might bring me down, and away from God, but I'm gonna stop them before that happens. I'm gonna stop them right now. It's fun talking to them, and they're really cool, but it's making me lose focus of what's really important, and that is my never-ending service to God. I'm gonna try my hardest. It's only been one night since I started, and I had to fight temptation super hard, but I prevailed in the end.

Also, something is wrong with YFC. I dunno what it is. The brothers and sisters aren't tight like we used to be. I don't know how to explain it, because it's like, floating nonchalantly underneath the radar, but it's there, and I feel it. It's either gonna cause us to erupt on eachother, or it's gonna cause us to slowly drift away from eachother. I don't know what it is, but I know that it's there. We'll have to see what happens. I'll pray about it.

- Bam