Usually, I'm never satisfied with life. Usually, I want something to happen, I wait and wish and hope and pray for something interesting to occur, because I'm either bored or sad or something of that manner. Usually, I'm stuck in a hole, or a rut, of depression, and something like a YFC event, or my friends or something makes me happy again. Usually, I'm waiting to be happy again. However, as of now, like, in this point in time, I am satisfied. I feel really chill. I'm not gonna say I'm NOT waiting for something to happen, because lately, I've been wanting to see somebody... Like, ALL the time, but that's not important. The point is, in general, I am happy with life.
A factor that could be part of my satisfaction was my great weekend. It was supah cool. I hung out with Robot.M most of the time. Saturday was good. Hung out at debut practice, and then went to Marco's super cool museum house and watched a movie. And then, I went to the Rockband Live concert (The Cab, Plain White T's, Dashboard Confessional, and P!@TD) on Sunday. That was awesome. Monday I went to church, yeah I didn't make it on Sunday, saw-ree. But anyways, Monday was like a huge session that lasted the whole day. Me, Matt, and Andjue just hung out at my house and we were just breaking like there was no tomorrow. Then at night when everybody left, I had a long talk with The Child, and then with Jay, and that was cool.
Another factor could be that I'm happy with my spiritual high. I mean, of course, it's not like camp-time high, or like NorCal assembly high, but it's pretty good. I've been very pious lately, pretty passive and mellow. Usually, I'm flamboyant, belligerent, rebellious... I guess God is telling me to calm down. And not to "lose my trousers," so to speak. I'm really happy for the newer YFC edition. Those kids are opening up like I've never seen teenagers do. They're really cool, and I think with the right guidance, they'll live the righteous path of good Christians. Or followers of God, whatever you want to call it. I like that they really were searching for a place to just let go of their problems and fears, and find courage to face their trials. And through God, the older members can help them. I guess, this is my new purpose, my new goal. I want to teach the kids, help them, let them know how I felt, and all of that will be possible with God's help. I can do it with God showing me what needs to be done.
Another thing that's been making me happy, is being able to talk to a person without restraint anymore. No more awkwardness. You know who you are, haha. I'm happy about that. Also, I saw somebody today who I hadn't seen for AGES. Abbeh!!! Yeah, her appearance today was a very good sign for me, because I'm starting to miss everybody who used to hang out at CRC with me... Y'know, SarahDonAbbyPehter!!!! Yeah, them. I'm probably forgetting somebody... But the point is, WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU GUYS!? I'm saaaaad without you. Aaaagh.
Oh well, I'm still satisfied, even though there's always something to bring me down, it's not big enough to ruin my happiness.
I guess that's it. Peace out yo.
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