Here comes the rain.

FINALLY! After months of scorching sun and heat, and the Legend being overwhelmingly unbearable, the RAIN has come. Stupid summer lasted way too long. Hopefully I won't be eating my words in the next week or so, and the sun comes back. Agh, that would be horrible, and I'd probably stop going outside altogether.

Now, I know I'm taking a sort of odd stance on the being of the weather, because, y'know, rain and clouds = gloomy, while sun and clear skies = happy. However, not in this sense. When there's sun and clear skies, it's not supposed to get so hot, you turn black after being outside for 10 minutes, and can hardly breathe when you get into a car that's been in the sun for like half an hour, but that's what summer in my town is like. It's like, the devil somehow got a little portion of hell to occur on Earth during certain times of the year.

Hopefully it doesn't rain tonight, though. I welcome the coldness, but just don't rain on my Halloween, please.

Oh, also, it's Halloween. Haha, happy Halloween to whoever's reading this. DEUCE CREW, WHERE YOU AT!?!?

Ok, I'm done with this post, I keep getting distracted.

Oh, the weather is great.

How many times have you experienced a day where you just walked outside, breathed in the air and knew, in your mind that that day was going to be a good day? As if the sun was happy, and the breeze was playful, and the clouds were lazily content. I guess adding emotions to inanimate (as far as I know, anyways) objects gives description a little kick, but back to the point.

Today is one of those days. It's a little in the afternoon, my house is clean, and the day is looking amazing from behind the window. What we don't know is, days like this occur pretty often, we just never notice them, because we're busy with life. We're busy doing other things like school, or work, or whatever else people are doing these days. It's those moments when you actually notice, "Oh, the weather is great," that the day brightens up.

It makes me want to get up and take a walk, a drive, SOMETHING! So I can see the place that I live in. And I have to see as much as I can, before the weather changes. Before it rains, or gets too hot, or something like that. I want to see it while the weather is perfect, because I want to hold that perfect memory in my brain and when the weather does change, I can remember when the weather was great, and hope and pray for another day like that.

Today's a park kind of day. I wish I could just round up all of my friends and go to the park. All of CFC-Youth, all of the cousins I haven't seen for months, maybe years, and my whole family, and everyone else's family. And then we could have a big hang out at the park on the perfect day, with the sun gently letting its rays fall onto our gathering, and the blue sky over head. Oh man, I can only IMAGINE the Wonderful World that Ray Charles envisioned in his song.

Back to reality, though. Today is a good day. I should make the most of it. Gonna head over to Blackman and Sidekick's house later, after the high school gets out, and we'll see if I can convince Blackman to turn off the DotA and come take a walk outside in the good weather. Right after I print out my essay for Zisk, that is. Did I mention he's the best teacher in the world? Well, he is.

Alright well, that's my update right now. I'm gonna go get something to eat, and then get ready to leave.

I really don't know who the heck reads this stuff, other than Robot.M. If you ARE reading this, though, whoever you are, then I want YOU to have a good day today. Hopefully, you get done what needs to be done for the day, and hopefully you have some fun doing it. Deal? Ok.

Ahh, happiness at it's finest.

Usually, I'm never satisfied with life. Usually, I want something to happen, I wait and wish and hope and pray for something interesting to occur, because I'm either bored or sad or something of that manner. Usually, I'm stuck in a hole, or a rut, of depression, and something like a YFC event, or my friends or something makes me happy again. Usually, I'm waiting to be happy again. However, as of now, like, in this point in time, I am satisfied. I feel really chill. I'm not gonna say I'm NOT waiting for something to happen, because lately, I've been wanting to see somebody... Like, ALL the time, but that's not important. The point is, in general, I am happy with life.

A factor that could be part of my satisfaction was my great weekend. It was supah cool. I hung out with Robot.M most of the time. Saturday was good. Hung out at debut practice, and then went to Marco's super cool museum house and watched a movie. And then, I went to the Rockband Live concert (The Cab, Plain White T's, Dashboard Confessional, and P!@TD) on Sunday. That was awesome. Monday I went to church, yeah I didn't make it on Sunday, saw-ree. But anyways, Monday was like a huge session that lasted the whole day. Me, Matt, and Andjue just hung out at my house and we were just breaking like there was no tomorrow. Then at night when everybody left, I had a long talk with The Child, and then with Jay, and that was cool.

Another factor could be that I'm happy with my spiritual high. I mean, of course, it's not like camp-time high, or like NorCal assembly high, but it's pretty good. I've been very pious lately, pretty passive and mellow. Usually, I'm flamboyant, belligerent, rebellious... I guess God is telling me to calm down. And not to "lose my trousers," so to speak. I'm really happy for the newer YFC edition. Those kids are opening up like I've never seen teenagers do. They're really cool, and I think with the right guidance, they'll live the righteous path of good Christians. Or followers of God, whatever you want to call it. I like that they really were searching for a place to just let go of their problems and fears, and find courage to face their trials. And through God, the older members can help them. I guess, this is my new purpose, my new goal. I want to teach the kids, help them, let them know how I felt, and all of that will be possible with God's help. I can do it with God showing me what needs to be done.

Another thing that's been making me happy, is being able to talk to a person without restraint anymore. No more awkwardness. You know who you are, haha. I'm happy about that. Also, I saw somebody today who I hadn't seen for AGES. Abbeh!!! Yeah, her appearance today was a very good sign for me, because I'm starting to miss everybody who used to hang out at CRC with me... Y'know, SarahDonAbbyPehter!!!! Yeah, them. I'm probably forgetting somebody... But the point is, WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU GUYS!? I'm saaaaad without you. Aaaagh.

Oh well, I'm still satisfied, even though there's always something to bring me down, it's not big enough to ruin my happiness.

I guess that's it. Peace out yo.

I am inspired.

This post is like a follow up of my last one. The people that I will mention are all major inspirations, who show me God's love, and teach me so much about life and how to live it in God's light. Infinitely, I thank you, and I thank God for leading me to you, because through you, He has given me peace.

Lemme start it off...

Robot.M
More than a best friend, more than a homie, you are my brother in all but blood. I've lived for a long time without anyone who shared so many traits with me. The same music, the same jaded outlook on life, and the same eloquent vocabulary. When I first became reacquainted with you, I thought, "Hey, he's cool." Little did I know, however, you were more than cool, you would become a beacon of light within my world of emo-ness. Over the few months that I've been in your company, I have learned that life, though it is bad sometimes, can be dealt with. We can mold ourselves against the trials that God puts before us, and emerge better than we were. You are, essentially, my older brother, in that I learn from you, and idolize you, and the truth is, I strive to be just like you, because you're the coolest guy there is, and God has given me a bond with someone who I can trust and who I can look up to. God has lead me to you.

(J/G)ay
I know, I make fun of you alot, but that's only a facade, because I really AM jealous, because you're so cool, it's insane. Jay, you're like the funnest person to pick on, and yet you inspire the hearts of so many. My clusterhead. I remember telling you that you are the ideal person to idolize, because you are the best influence for any person. And truthfully, I would want to mold myself into a Jay-clone, because, when all the goofiness dies down, and all that's left is seriousness, I see a leader, I see someone dedicated to the service of God, and someone who can convey a plethora of knowledge upon the young minds who have been lead to you by God. He granted you this ability to show others His light, and I will be the first to admit that, from you, I have been shown His light. I have been shown His love. And through you, God leads me in the right direction. Through you, He "keeps me straight". Haha.

Mee-Shell aka The Child
I bet you didn't expect to see your name here, huh? Or maybe you did, and if you DID, then it just proves what I'm about to write about you.

I never expected to be able to draw so much intellect from you. Usually, our conversations consist of me asking you for a phone number, or us making fun of eachother. I thought you were all about just playing around. And then, I saw you become serious. I saw you evolve into someone different than just weird Michelle. I saw passion in its purest form, something that I don't see in everyone, or that I barely see in anyone. It's like, when you change into that state of being, you heighten to a different level, and when I see that, I become inspired. Like the shaving thing. You knew in your heart that what I was saying was wrong, and when I dared to question your faith, you did all that was possible in order to disprove me. You were determined to make me change my mind, because you just KNEW, as if God was telling you that my theory was incorrect. And for your efforts, I applaud you. And then when you showed me you had like FOURTY talks all set and prepared, I was blown away, because I never would have guessed that you, of all people, would harbor so much dedication. That, in and of itself, is truely inspiring.

Kevin D. !!!!
Yeah, not much to say about Kevin. Really, he inspires EVERYONE. As soon as you step up in front of the room to speak, we all know and anticipate something amazing to flow out of you, because you are THAT inspiring. You're like a CFC-Y Muse, spreading joy and enlightenment, and want to better oneself to the masses of people who look up to you. It's obvious why I'd mention you here, because this whole inspiration post would be incomplete without your name gracing it. I know I act a little too excited when I'm around you, but that's because you're awesome. And anyone who has ever met you would agree with me.



I guess that's it. I mean, I can write about some more people who inspire me, but there's too many, and I'm getting lazy. So, I'mma be out, yo. Peace and God Bless.

-Bam

This one's long overdue.

It's been awhile since I posted something about God and His plan and His love, and today, I got that inspiration again, to convey another message.

I was walking around, sweeping the kitchen earlier, thinking about how The Child has like a million talks already prepared within her teaching arsenal. Well, not a million, but like 40, no joke. Anyways, that got me to thinking. The Child has HELLA talks, and judging from the last one that I attended, they are well-prepared, and set up and ready to go on a moments' notice.

Since the camp I graduated from, I've been craving to spread some of my knowledge on God and how He can work through us humans in order to speak His word to everyone. Inspiration from Him can come from anywhere, from a painting, a photo, a song, a speech... All of those, generated by humans, generated by US. God gave us these gifts, not only for our sake, but because we can use them for Him as well. How many songs have you heard by Kevin Discipulo, that are God-inspired? It's amazing, isn't it? It's like, God is working artistry through a human being. Another example, how many of my blogs have you seen that are God-inspired? You see what I'm getting at?

Now, I've got another example, the most famous one. His teachings inspired masses of people, his life changed the face of the entire time line of Earth's history, and the whole population of the world along with it. And even in the present, two-thousand years later, after he was executed for blaspheming, we are still spreading his teachings to the people of the Earth. You know who I'm talking about, right?

Even though Jesus was the Son of God, he was still a human, albeit a perfect human, and God worked miracles through him. We can do the same, brothers and sisters, we have that ability, because God gave each and every one of us a brain, and speech, and as long as we can utilize them for Him, we can strike inspiration in any and all. And we HAVE, and continue to do so, two or three times a year, in bulk, for every youth camp that we host, we inspire these candidates, and it's so amazing how God works. He gave us the power and the means to inspire, AND He brings those who are desperate to receive Him to us, so that they might feel His love, and experience His presence.

That, in and of itself, is a miracle. To be able to change the lives of 30-40 kids over the course of three days. That is truly a feat of greatness, something brought on by the divine. And we don't even do it just once, no, we have the opportunity to keep GOING, keep spreading God's love, keep touching the lives and souls of these kids for God. THAT is something so unreal, we're carrying on Jesus' legacy. That's something to be more than proud of.

Now, I'll end this post with a question. Just ponder on it for a bit:

How does God inspire you, and how do you inspire others?