Decembeard. HAHAHA.

This is log 26... And the days are blurring together.

LMAO oh my goodness Avatar has got me hooked on some other kind of stuff. Those damn Na'vi. Anyways, foreal, I want to see it again. With you. Actually, I want to see it multiple times with you. 100 times. Haha. Well, I'd like to see ANYTHING with you. Or do anything with you. Even if it's nothing. I'd love to do nothing with you. As long as it's with you, I'm happy.

I'm thinking about trying the whole courting thing. I know I'll probably suck at it, but you never know. I've been one to do miraculous things when I put my full heart into it. I still gotta plan it out alot more though. And get more money, because you can't get trained doves for free.

Haha, yeah, like I would go that far. Maybe if I was proposing, I would, but it's not THAT serious.

I think I'm gonna do the M&M thing, with the orange and stuff. And flowers with it. Oh MAN, that'd be tight. But then it's all about timing, when do I present it? No idea.

Valentine's day? I'm impatient, haha. But that would be better. I need moneys first anyways. Alright. Plan is set, I know what I wanna do. But then there's a matter of what I should say... Agh. I think I'll write giant notecards and let her read them. Like Love Actually. OH SNAP. I'm a boss. Ok, here we go. Thanks blogspot, hahahaha.

You could be my drug dealer girl.

So, Discovery camp is over. I'm doing pretty good. YFC events just don't have the same effect on me as they used to. Of course, I still love them, and I still gain something from every single one of them, but it's just a different feeling. I wasn't excited beforehand. And I wasn't really enlightened. It was an amazing camp, and everything. I just think I've become numb to those experiences. I mean, after so many of them, it's like I'm just kinda... There.

Don't get me wrong, I still feel the Holy Spirit. And I am so thankful that I was able to go, but there's just no after effect like there used to be. It's just not a new thing to me anymore. I mean, I wasn't disappointed or anything. The camp wasn't bad in any way shape or form. To the contrary, it was great. It's just me that's boring. Haha.

Yeah, but that's just more of an update. I got other news. Obviously, the title of this post is contradictory to a YFC camp theme. Haha. Yeah. Anyways, here we go. I'm about to switch up my writing style, so sorry if this is weird.

I'd like to apologize if I'm addicted to what you got. Even though I know of course, that it's not narcotics you're dealing. You don't push drugs, because that's not like you. No, you're holding something so much more addicting than a pill or a plant. You're holding swag. Dealing beauty. Pushing influence. I got no idea how you got me so hooked on you. You got something so potent, you don't even need hallucinogens for me to feel like I'm hallucinating. Maybe I'm just going crazy, but I do understand something. And if anything, it's that you GOT something. Maybe a pheromone, that I might catch your scent. Or maybe it's just how you are, but I know that whatever you're doing. You're doing it right. And I'm falling into your trap. Because what you got makes me willing to do ANYTHING to get to it.

And the thing is, I know that no amount of money can buy what you got. I can't just purchase something to make you hand over the goods. And in any event, that's not even what you deserve. You need something - no, someONE - who will TRY. And that's me. Definitely, that's me. I'll try. Because I want what you got, and I'll find out what you like, hopefully, if I try hard enough. You'll be addicted to me.

For reference, go on youtube and listen to Drug Dealer Girl by Mike Posner. Awesome song.